They say it’s your birthday

It’s time for a BIRTHDAY POST!!!!!!! 

It’s March 22nd, and that means it’s my Monma’s birthday.  Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to fly down as a surprise this year.  Last year was insanely awesome!  I did get to see her earlier this month when I flew down for a funeral.  I’m glad I got a few days to sort of celebrate.  Anywho! Let’s do this!

Dear Momma,

  You kick ass. You just do. I don’t know many women who can handle a teenage jerk rebelling for days, a full-time job, paying multiple bills, and maintaining some semblance of sanity (I say some because we all know you’re kind of crazy. It’s a ‘fun crazy ‘ though ). You’ve taught me so much throughout my life. Some of which I didn’t listen to  (and probably should have). Some of which hurt at the time. And some of which molded me into who I am today. 

I’m immensely thankful for your mad cooking skills, so is anyone who has had your cooking. I’m thankful for your 4 hour long phone calls letting me vent about my life. I’m thankful for you going with me to midnight movie releases. I’m thankful for you going to concerts with me. I’m thankful for your awesome hugs. But mostly, I’m thankful for your love. You love unconditionally, and you wear your heart on your sleeve. I know you hurt sometimes. I know I’ve been the reason for that hurt sometimes (not lately cause I’m awesome). I know that you’ve powered through and have discovered that friends make the best family. 

I also want to thank you for defending me. Especially this past year, when people that should know better tried to tear me down and drag my faith through the mud. You were there with words of encouragement and polite defense when all I wanted to do was be rude and angry. 

You know my heart,  and are always there for me. I don’t have enough words to say how thankful I am for God giving me the best mom! Thank you for your years of encouragement, honesty, and love. Thank you for being my shoulder to cry on, hands to hold,  friend to tell my ideas to, and strength during the hard times. 

You’re an amazing mom. I love you so much and miss you a lot! I hope you have the best day ever, we will go do something when I’m there this summer! 
Love,

Kelsey(your favorite daughter)

Hey momma!

Let’s have a mother’s day post!!!

What better way to bring back the blog?!

So, this year I actually bought my mom a card. Shocking,  I know! I even bought it a few weeks ago so I would be able to send it out and have it arrive in time. But did I remember or have time to do that? Of course not! I fail in the daughter department sometimes. It’s crappy, but whatever!

I love my mom. She knows that.

Unfortunately, we live over 20 hours away from each other, which is difficult, emotionally, on these holidays.  I was so lucky and blessed to be able to surprise her for her birthday back in March,
but I still wish we could be together today.
I remember growing up and seeing father’s day posts from friends, or watching a father and daughter on TV, and thinking it kinda sucked to not be able to do that. To have that relationship with my father. But I always had my mom, she always made that day a regular day for me. And I never realized that at some point I would look on Facebook and get jealous of all the Mother’s day posts. I miss my mom more than anything and I am glad she is still around but I realized that a lot of people don’t get to have this day with their mom for a different reason than almost 2,000 miles.  There are people out there that lost their momma and I know my mom is one of those people.
I know this because today would have been my Grandma’s birthday.  I miss her a lot, but I wasn’t raised by her. I didn’t get the chance to come home from school and talk about my day with her. Or, cry on her shoulder because my heart hurt. I didn’t get to tell her about school assignments, or my hopes and dreams. I didn’t have the same relationship with her that I have with my mom. I know my mom misses her momma because there’s a huge distance between here and heaven. I know she wishes she would be able to pick up the phone and tell her momma about how rockin her granddaughter is (I’m a very humble person). Or, just tell her Happy Mother’s Day one more time.

So, for those of you out there that don’t have your momma with you today.  My heart hurts for you, but I know they’re all up in the sky getting the best Mother’s Day celebration ever. And celebrating my grandma for her birthday!
I was blessed with such an awesome mom, and I know I was a punk when I was younger, and I hurt her heart time and time again. But she was always there. She’s still always there. I hope when I have kids they will be as in awe of me as I am of my mother.
My mom kicks butt.
She’s powerful.
She’s graceful.
She’s smart.
She’s hilarious.
She’s sarcastic.
She’s humble.

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She taught me everything I know and has always fought for me and with me against any wall that has blocked my path.
I know that she has put up with a lot of crap from me over the years and I’m so grateful she never walked away. I know there were things that scared her, but she stood by me. I can only hope that you all have a mother as awesome as mine. Or that you are a mother as awesome as mine.

I want to wish all you mothers the happiest of Mother’s Days! You rock,  your strength in the everyday tasks of motherhood amazes me. I hope you’re spoiled and pampered today. Or, if you’re not near your mom, or kiddos, that you can make up for it when you see them next (I get to celebrate my mom in June!).
Love and miss y’all.  I’ll post later this week about what’s been happening in my life!!

So wear me like a locket around your throat…

I’ve been having some of the best days of my life!!! Honestly, my life is pretty rockin. Yes, I miss my California humans more than I can explain! But I’ve finally discovered my niche up here, and that makes moving forward so much easier!!

There have been so many things happening from the last post about my life. Which was back in February, after Valentine’s Day.

My boyfriend, Sean 💕 and I, drove down to Oregon, to Pacific University…okay, so he drove, I most likely annoyed with my musical selections. Anyway, we went to see my family, they were visiting my cousins future school. We went to the Tillamook factory, had ice cream, took a stroll around a beach, and took pictures. Then had a delicious dinner at this little Thai place close to the school!! It was awesome to see my family, and have them meet my guy!!

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Okay, so that was it for February. Then March came along. Not a lot happened that I can think of…oh! That’s right! I went to Emerald City Comic Con 😎😎 it was interesting…as all comic conventions are. There were tons of people in Cosplay, and it was really cool seeing how committed some of the outfits were (some had awesome details…some did not). Plus, I got to sleep in a super comfy bed at the Westin (I could honestly write odes to this bed. Perhaps a haiku…no, that’s crazy. But you need to understand that this bed was heaven!!), and have a delicious dinner at Il Fornaio, where they have dessert that is also sent from heaven!!! Plus, the next day I got to see a woman that is like my other mother, and have some catch up time!! Also in March, Sean and I did a double date with his friends, and he officially referred to me as his girlfriend!! For you to understand how excited I was, you’d have to be female. Haha. I played it cool in the moment, but inside I was doing the happy, victory dance…y’all know that dance! 💃💃💃 I think that was it for March. Oh, I also had a minor meltdown. It was the night before my mom’s birthday, and that week had been tough. I just missed California, and was really homesick. It all cultivated to one night and after getting dinner, Sean and I went to his apartment, and I felt it happening, I felt the meltdown arriving, and I took the meds that help maintain everything. The only problem was the meds don’t work instantly, you need some time. And if I hid in the bathroom for over ten minutes, that’d be a little creepy. So, I walked out, Sean stopped me in the hall, and I broke. We’re talking full on sobs. That’s right, y’all. I had the ugly cry going. Tears and makeup streaming down my face, snot making bubbles from your nose, sniffles that are not remotely ladylike, and the sad crying sounds. All in front of Sean. What did he do? He hugged me, and held me through all of it. He calmed me. He let me get tears and snot on his shirt:? and he told me it was okay. I’m pretty sure that’s when I absolutely knew how I felt about him. 😌

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And that was March!! Now, for April!!!

I’ve had a chance to make some new friends!! Which I super love! But the most important was that Sean wanted me to meet his parents!!!! …those of you that know me, or that I talked with about this know that I was hardcore freaking out! I’ve never met the parents of a guy I dated. I usually already knew the parents before we dated, or it wasn’t an option. Either way, this was the first time for me meeting the parents, and for his parents to meet a girl he was dating! That’s big. No matter how you slice it, it was a big step!! I was invited to Easter dinner, where I would meet his mom, dad, and aunt. Hyperventilating was a big occurrence. The day finally arrived, I looked adorable (seriously, super cute sun dress, cardigan, grey booties). I ended up having a lot of fun. His parents were amazing. His aunt was hilarious. The food was delicious!! When we were leaving, they all gave me rockin hugs. And it felt wonderful. On the drive home, Sean told me they had each told him they liked me at various times during the night!! It was awesome!! All that freaking out was pointless, it always is. I most likely won’t stop. But hey, it makes me the person I am.
The most important part of that night though, was when we went to Sean’s. Because when that happened, we were cuddled on the couch eating candy, and Sean gave me a card. Inside the card was a key to his apartment. It’s my new favorite escape! And with that key he told me the three words every girl longs to hear!!!! He told me he loves me!!!!!!!!!!!  There aren’t really enough exclamation points for describing that moment. I became that over excited girl that you see and wonder what she’s on. I was giggly and bouncy and happy. My heart was slippery, and my tummy was mush. There have been moments over the past few months when I’ve wanted to say those words to him. But I didn’t. Finally, being able to say it and have it said back, is an incredible feeling!! This guy makes me happy. Does he annoy me? Yes. Are there times when I wanna smack him? Heck yes! But the days when he watches a movie he doesn’t want to (Hercules…the Disney version😝), or takes me to get donuts from our favorite place, when he holds my hand and will give me kisses all over my face when I’m sad, or when he texts me good morning and good night. Those are the times that matter. Those are the times when my heart is full. I love those times. I love Sean😘

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Okay, so I’m cheesy as Heck, but whatever. It’s my life. It’s my blog post!!

Now, I will move on.

It’s Q&A TIME WITH KELSEY!!!!😍😘😍💓💓💕💕💛❤💙

QUESTION #1: WHO’S YOUR FAVORITE BAND?
The answer is Green Day. It will always be Green Day. They’re seriously the best! They know how to play their instruments. They write lyrics that actually mean something! They are awesome!!

QUESTION #2: WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?
This is a weird question. My favorite number is 13. I like the superstitions attached to it. I think it’s hilarious. Plus, it was the Jersey number of a guy I used to have a huge crush on…lol teenagers.

QUESTION #3: WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE FEATURE IN A GUY?
So, I wasn’t sure if this was based on physical, or personality. And I decided to just answer both. My favorite physical feature is…eyes. You can learn a lot from a person based on their eyes. And my favorite personality feature is a guy that can entertain children. Being able to see how a guy treats kids is helpful in seeing how he would treat his own children. 😝

QUESTION #4: WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF A YEAR FROM NOW?
Shout out to Sam for this lovely question. I miss you, dear!!
Okay, a year from now? I’m not sure. I honestly never know where I’ll be, or what I’ll be doing. I’ll most likely still be in Washington. I’m hoping to have a job that’s incredibly awesome, and pays well. And I’m most definitely gonna be happy. Cause it’s mine to design, y’all!!!

QUESTION #5: WHAT DO YOU THINK IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO HAVE IN A RELATIONSHIP?
I’m assuming this is a romantic relationship you’re asking about? I think the most important thing is trust. There are lots of things you’ll want, like someone to make you laugh, someone to encourage your weirdness, someone who loves you. But if you don’t trust the person you’re dating, then you have the potential to be hurt beyond repair. And that’s not cool -__-

Alright, that’s it. I will definitely post regularly from this point on!! Keep sending me your questions, prayer requests, testimonies, or just fun messages!!

Love and miss y’all!!!

-Kelsey H. 💕
Hisfavoritestory@Gmail.com

Leaving home is not for the lighthearted

In my 23 years it’s always been me and my momma. Yeah, there was a bit of time when I was a jerk and thought I didn’t need her…I obviously did. So, when I felt the call to move to Washington I thought it would be easy. I’ve lived on my own, I’ve had my own apartment, I’ve even gone without talking with my mother for a little bit(not really my shining moments), but my momma had always been within an hours distance. Now, that’s definitely not the case!!!!

To say I’m freaking out is an understatement. I may have been crying myself to sleep every night. It’s okay though, it’s part of my growing process.  I’ve been pushing myself to be busy as much as possible. To make new friends. To go on adventures. It’s been great! On Sunday I went to a new church, I met the youth pastor, and he happened to know my pastor and his family! Plus, a guy I met my first year of being a camp counselor happened to have moved up here a few years ago! It’s a crazy small world! After church I went to meet my family’s neighbor from Phoenix. He’s awesome! Totally welcoming, took me around town, he helped me feel like I wasn’t over 20 hours away from my family! It’s definitely helped with this transition.

When I was planning my journey I was supposed to stay with a lady for a little bit while interviewing for a handful of nanny positions. Plus, it gave me time to go apartment hunting. Unfortunately,  when I was about ten minutes away from the house, the lady called and told me that she thought about it, and that the deal we worked out wasn’t going to work for her! That really came as a shock and made me start questioning things (not really a great thing to do after driving several hours). I was upset, sad, and just about to call it quits and start my journey home! But, after speaking with my momma and my aunt, I was encouraged to push forward! One of the nanny jobs was a live-in shift, and I was contacted to do the interview once I got into town. This position seemed great when I was talking with the family. However, when I arrived things seemed to be changed, the little details were all changed, one of which was the living situation. Instead of living with a family, I would be living in a house with just the dad and the 9 year old boy. The hours were extended without anymore money being added. My bedroom had a bed in it(twin size mattress :'() and the bathroom was disgusting(think about the fact that 9 year old boys don’t aim or flush 😷😵), but I needed a place to stay. So they offered me the job, and I accepted. My first day was filled with me basically bleaching the entire bathroom and scrubbing the walls in my bedroom with bleach and Lysol. I also tried cleaning the carpet(a lovely brown shag) to no avail. It was gross!! Pretty sure I’ll be having nightmares about it for years to come.
Through all that I kept my focus on my future! I’m freaking Kelsey Hayden!! I’ve got loads of support from friends and family! But the key thing is that I’m a child of God, I’m His princess! I can do this!!! I’ve continued keeping my focus on Christ. He’s the reason I’m up here! So, this morning, after I finished my devotionals, I was praying.  I was praying that if this is where I’m supposed to be that the Lord would give me a sense of peace and understanding. I also prayed that if this wasn’t the place that I would have a sign. I was still praying when the doorbell rang! So, I ran downstairs(looking gross in yesterday’s makeup, my pjs with holes in them, and bed head that is tangled and I’m fairly certain had drool in it :/)
I opened the door, and standing there on the porch was a man that looked as though he were a Greek god! I swear, this guy was tall, tan, muscled, and his face was gorgeous! Oh my word! He was from the power company. He was there to shut off the power for nonpayment…well I did ask for a sign…so after all that I sent the guy a text telling him what was going on, he said he had paid it, and  I finished praying. Fast forward to two hours later and the power finally got turned back on!!
After all this I started applying for other jobs. Primarily live-in, since I’m still not used to the area, But I’ll be able to check out the places before agreeing to take the jobs. One of the jobs I had interviewed for before was still looking for a nanny, So I got back in touch with that family, hopefully it’ll work out! If it does, I’d start at the beginning of October.
Right now the prayer is for continued peace through this transition. Whether I’m supposed to be at this job, or the other one. Even if I get a job and apartment by myself. I still need that peace. God is good, and I’m not stressing any of this. I know He has a purpose for me, and I know I’ve got people lifting my struggles and fears up to Him. I’m blessed beyond my wildest dreams, and I’m holding onto that. I miss everyone So much and it’s hard knowing things are happening that I’m needed for but can’t actually be there for!  But this is just a new season of life for all of us!!

Love y’all, and miss y’all💕💕
~Kelsey
Hisfavoritestory@gmail.com