I’m fairly certain that I jinxed myself. Or something along those lines.
While I was on here Tuesday, singing the praises of the Kid, the enemy was doing a freaking number on that same kids heart! UGH!!!
The past few days, I have no idea what got into this punk. But he woke up grumpy. Typically mornings are not an issue for me because the Kid is pretty independent and will deal with his own waking habits. I just need to get him a bowl of cereal… super easy!! But this time around? NOPE!! Just a grump. But whatever, he also didn’t want me to walk him to the end of the street( this was most likely since there is a girl I’m certain he likes that is there) so I let him go by himself(I can see him from the window upstairs). The main issue is when the kid gets home from school! This freaking kid has fought me tooth and freaking nail about EVERYTHING! Then he switched tactics and instead of fighting about not doing it, he’d do it, but question what I was doing all day. As though the dishes he and his father had made a mess using the night before were my issue to clean up! And why was I reading when I should have been cleaning up the living room that I’m never in?! Ugh! Freaking guy! Anyway, I proceeded to tell him he was being rude and disrespectful. But the BEST PART, is that on Wednesday, he refused to come in from playing outside to clean his room , and I had to go outside and get him, and he stood on the front yard yelling that he didn’t have to listen to me, while I told him if he didn’t he would end up having to deal with his dad, and we got the neighborhood gossips staring at the whole thing, this freaking kid tells me he “hates” me! FREAKING HATES ME! So, obviously I replied with, “I don’t care. Get in the house!”, which worked. Then once inside I discover that I’m “the meanest babysitter ever!” and “never” let the kid have fun! Oh jeez! I was done at that point. The dad, thank God, got home about fifteen minutes later, and was informed immediately that I was hated and the meanest. Now, the dad went to the kids room and ten minutes later they both come downstairs. The kid(with tears in his eyes) apologizes and lets me know that he doesn’t hate me and I’m not the meanest. Then the dad lets him know that if he acts like that again, he’ll get just about all his “privileges” taken away. After that I left to run errands, pretty much anything was better than being there!!
So after all that, the kid isn’t exactly jumping at the chance to be my BFF, he’s actually continued to be antagonistic, but it really doesn’t matter to me. I need a job. I need a place to live. Even if it’s only temporary, I’m going to continue to power through. Until I can find something else. I’m staying. UGH! Being an adult is a stupid thing, and I reject it.
On a happier note!
IT’S Q&A TIME!!!!!
I got hit with some questions from a few readers. And some from my youth girls. The following are the answers!!
QUESTION 1: What do you do when you’re bored?
Well, when I’m bored I do a medley of things. I’ll text some friends to see what they’re up to(usually they’re bored as well). Or, I’ll put in a movie, or watch one on Netflix. I’ll go on a run. I’ll curl up with a good book. I’ll actually take time to do my makeup and hair. Or, I’ll go take a nap. When I’m bored, I do boring things. #livingthelife
QUESTION 2: Who is your celebrity crush?
It changes based on what I watch them in. My go to guy is Orlando Bloom!! OMG that man! Followed by Viggo Mortensen(I would wife him so hard). Harrison Ford is a freaking FOX(yes, I am aware of the age difference). I’m sure there a bunch more…I know there are. But I will limit myself to those I mentioned.
QUESTION 3: Are you a good dancer?
I like to think so! In theory, I have the moves of those on So You Think You Can Dance. In reality, I just like to move! I really never care if people think I can dance or not. And anyone out there that hasn’t gone out on a dance floor to bust a move because they were worried about what others would think, GET OVER IT! Go on that floor! Lose yourself to that beat! It doesn’t matter if you look like a complete dork! Most people do! Have the confidence to be your own person! Most others will join in as long as you’re having fun, it doesn’t matter what others think.
QUESTION 4: Who, and where, was your first kiss?
Okay, so this one is odd. My first kiss was a lovely chaste kiss when I was just a kid and didn’t actually know what I was doing with a childhood friend named Stephen, in my moms closet. I don’t actually know why we were there. Or, why we decided to kiss. Or, how we knew what to do. But I do remember it was pretty perfect in my little kid mind!
QUESTION 5: What’s something, or someone you miss most from your childhood?
My Grandma. I was lucky to get a few years with her. She passed before I turned three, and though most would think that you wouldn’t remember something from that age, I do. I remember she was sick. I remember going to an appointment with her and my mom, and she pulled me onto the exam table to sit on her lap, and told me she loved me and would always be watching out for me. I remember she had a heart that was so full of love, especially near the end. I miss her the most. I hold onto those words, and I know she meant them. I know when I’m having crappy days and something awesome turns it around that she played a part in it. I know when I cry she tries to hold me in her own way. I know she’s there. I know she’s sticking to what she said to me all those years ago.
QUESTION 6: Have you ever ridden on a motorcycle, ATV, or motocross bike?
Oh jeez, all of the above. My uncle used to have a Harley, and took me on a ride one time through Phoenix! It rocked!! I had a group of friends in school that rode motocross and let me ride their bikes a few times, but after seeing them crash and having to recover so much I realized it wasn’t for me. And an ATV, I’ve ridden a few times. The last time was a week before my 18th birthday and me and my friend crashed and ended up going to the hospital. She had a skull fracture, some cuts, and bruises. I had a dislocated shoulder, cracked ribs, cuts, and bruises. Pretty much the last time I will ever be on one of those!!
QUESTION 7: Did you ever have an imaginary friend as a child?
Yes. I don’t remember actually having one. But my mother swears I did. She said her name was Nancy, and I don’t know many other details. Lol children are odd.
QUESTION 8: Have you ever fallen for a character in a book?
Pretty much every male character! Honestly, some of my favorite authors create these guys that are the dream guy for me! Unfortunately, that’s all they are. A dream. But I do love getting drawn into a story where a character will make you feel and relate to his struggles, and therefore want to ‘fix’ those struggles for him. Haha.
QUESTION 9: What do you think are the most important traits to look for in a guy?
Does he love Jesus? That’s pretty much it! Seriously, everyone has different preferences in what they want in a guy! I want a guy that’s tall, respects his mom, treats me like a princess, has great hygiene, and makes me laugh every single day! But if he doesn’t put Christ first in any relationship, then he isn’t the guy for me. I’m not willing to lower my standards. If that means I stay single for a little bit longer, so be it. That’s what I’m looking for. That’s what I’ll wait for.
QUESTION 10: Do you still think about your first love?
This one is actually tough, mainly because I can’t honestly say I’ve been in love with any of the guys I dated. Now, before you get all judge, let me explain. The first guy that I was ever with was not a good situation. It was a horrible thing, and I will save that story for another day, but he tried to convince me that the horrible things he put me through were because he loved me. Therefore, I tried to justify what was happening as love. It wasn’t, for the record. It was lust. Those two emotions get so mixed and clouded that it is hard to tell the difference. Looking back I realize what it was, I realize that I never loved him. Yeah, there will always be that ‘tie” there. But it wasn’t love. I think I’m still looking for my first (and hopefully only) love.
That’s all the for the Q&A this week. There were a few more that I wanted to answer, but I’ll keep those for next week! As always, keep sending me questions! I love answering them. I love you all and miss you all. Feel free to also email me prayer requests, and testimonies! I LOVE reading those! One day I will share my entire testimony. But yours are so very awesome and I love that you’re open to sharing your lives with me. You’re all awesome! Until next time!!